Confession #31 – I’m So Ashamed…I Had Sex With My Son
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Now onto today’s
confession, it comes to us all the way from sunny Miami, and it is one of those
confessions that need no introduction, the title says it all. So grab yourself
a drink and a snack and sink your teeth into today’s story. And remember to
tell us what you think in the COMMENT BOX BELOW!!!
Hi Carol I feel so ashamed of myself I just had to tell
someone before I go out of my mind. I have one son and he is 17 years old. Ever
since his 16th birthday he has been begging me to have sex with him.
My son is not like most boys he is painfully shy, overweight, suffers badly
with acne, wears glasses and is very tall and awkward.
From the time he went into high school he has been teased and
bullied because of his size. I have spent so may evenings holding my son in my
arms as he sobbed and begged me not to force him to continue going to school. I
have talked to his teachers about the bullying and over the last 12 months it
has gotten better. But my son is still desperately unhappy.
Late last year a new family moved into our street and my son
became friends with one of the girls in the family but soon after they became
friends he overheard the girl at school telling some other girls she only talks
to my son so that she can get a ride to school. My son was devastated by this
because he thought he finally had a shot at getting a girlfriend.
Ever since then my son has been convinced that he will never
get a girlfriend and will always be a virgin. So he started asking me to help
him out. He just wanted to know what it was like to have sex. At first I was
truly appalled by the idea but watching my sons’ immense unhappiness day after
day was tearing my heart apart, so eventually I agreed to help my son to lose
My son was extremely grateful and continues to refer to me
as the best mother a boy could have but I am so consumed with guilt. I don’t
sleep, I hardly eat and I am struggling to stay focused at work. I have been so
distracted my boss suggested I take my vacation early to get myself together. I
have been considering going back to my church and confess my sins but I have
not been brave enough as yet.
I just had to get this off my chest. I do not expect anyone
to understand my actions but I was honestly just trying to help my desperately
unhappy son. Thanks carol for giving me the opportunity to confess, doing so
has helped a lot.
I’m not sure I even know what to say to you Guilty Momma. I
cannot even imagine what madness could have driven you to commit incest. If you
really wanted to do something for your son you should have waited till he was
18 and hired a prostitute for him. Or better yet you could have helped your son
to improve his looks and his self-esteem.
You said he is overweight…that is not a permanent condition.
You say he has acne….this is not a permanent condition.
You say he wears glasses…you can get nicer glasses or
Bringing that kind of shame on yourself and your son was not
a wise decision. And although he may think you did him a favour now as he gets
older he will begin to understand the gravity of his actions. As a parent you
have to understand that you cannot solve every one of your child’s problems,
some things they just have to work through by themselves. In your case there
were quite a few alternatives to having sex with your son.
Now that the dirty deed is done I would suggest you get help
to pull yourself together. You are your sons’ sole provider; he needs you so
you need to sort yourself out. Go to see your priest if you think that will
help but personally I believe that doing so will only pile more guilt on your
shoulders. I would suggest a counsellor, someone impartial and not emotionally
attached. That way you can get some professional but non-judgmental help.
I wish you luck…you’re gonna need it.
SO OVER TO YOU FOLKS!!!
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